Save The Cheerleader

this_quest @ 2009-09-05T03:49:00

2009-09-05T02:53:00Z

I have not had internet in a long time

since hannah moved out in fact

jen has leant me hers tonight :)

apparently, I have been kicked out of ADIML_4_ADULTS, one of the very few communities I followed and enjoyed around her

that has not helped the shit mood I am in

and I am pissed off

I haven't been very active recently what with the whole internet problem but I posted in quite a few challenges.

didn't even get an explanation or a fucking goodbye

as you may be able to tell, I am being a miserable drunk.

this_quest @ 2009-08-26T00:12:00

2009-08-25T23:21:13Z

Well that was an adventure

Earlier today we had a power cut. It only lasted about an hour and really wasn't very dramatic, just a little boring.

This evening, as we were just starting the half hour walk home from the pub in the dark through the scary dark paths, we had another power cut and all the street lights went out. Gotta be honest, I was shit scared :( I know it's pathetic but I don't like the dark. Luckily the chertsey amubulance station is on our way home and the nice paramedics let us wait in the station with them till our taxi arrived.

Small bit of back-story. A few weeks ago a mental health patient escaped from the mental health ward on site. Today, there was an article in the surrey herald about another patient who has escaped from what is meant to be the most secure ward, warning people that he is dangerous and not to be approached.

This made the scary walk in the dark all the more fun.

Considering we are a house of 4 (fairly pathetic) girls we did a good job of being brave enough to find all our torches and candles and sitting together in the lounge. Luckily just before it was time to go to bed the power came back on.

From now on, power cuts are only allowed in day time.

this_quest @ 2009-07-26T02:20:00

2009-07-26T01:21:17Z

tonight fun cant fel feet not leepy yet

this_quest @ 2009-07-21T15:44:00

2009-07-21T14:50:58Z

I'm in the computer lab and someone in front of me is fixing her flip flop by pushing drawing pins up through the sole. I am waiting for her to try and walk and hilarity to ensue.

In other news, I have a pharmacology exam tomorow. It is 45 minutes long and has 30 questions. Here is what I have learnt:

We take drugs. They do stuff to us. If we take the right amount of good drugs, they do good stuff. If we take the wrong amount, or take bad drugs, they do bad stuff to us. Some drugs make other drugs not work. If you take MAOI's, you can't eat dairy. I'm not convinced it would be worth it. Grapefuit juice is also a general no-no for some drugs.

I can have marks, yes??

Whenever I try and revise I just sit and sing songs in my head, so I might as well save myself the effort and just listen to my iPod.

this_quest @ 2009-07-20T22:12:00

2009-07-20T21:17:58Z

No.1 bad thing about living at a hospital - when people escape from the 'secure' mental health ward and come knocking on your door.

Not even kidding :(

It was really sad. We think maybe he was from the dementia ward, but he was carrying a knife and looked a bit scary. He said he was trying to escape, and when we said we'd ring security he said that's who he was escaping from and looked really scared. He wandered on after we closed the door and we rang the mental health unit and eventually got hold of the ward he should have been on, who came and got him.

Security were fucking useless. We tried ringing them twice and they said they would ring back, but never did. When my housemates went out to find out where the man was and make sure he was ok, they ran into security who basically told them they were on their own, and to ring the police next time.

Security my ass.

Door is locked and this was a weird night.

this_quest @ 2009-07-19T08:11:00

2009-07-19T07:18:40Z

I just got in a from a night shift, going to sleep soon however I'm in one of those moods where I just need an excuse to say...

I am fupping fed up with all this swine flu nonsense.

Good Lord.

Maybe if we renamed it to "really not that scary at all" flu, then the world and it's wife would stop cacking it's pants. And coming into hospital to do so.

Also, I am not impressed at the people who came in at 3 in the morning (just when I thought we would have a nice quiet spell) because their kid had pain in their hand. And they had not given any pain relief.

They drove to A+E at 3 in the morning because they couldn't be arsed to go to 24hr tescos (just down the road) and get some Calpol.

Really? REALLY?

Sorry. A+E has turned me into a cynical, judgemental, horrible person. I still like it though.

Next week is my last week :( I've liked it here.

Night night.

this_quest @ 2009-06-30T19:57:00

2009-06-30T19:01:25Z

I just finished my first long day in paeds A+E and it was effing awesome. I've been triaging and looking after a girl with suspected swine flu and the ward sister said she was really impressed how fast I'm learning, especially in terms of doing triage already :) It was wicked but so ridonkulously hot, I'm sure no one wants to know this but I'm really hot and sweaty and disgusting at the moment. Not helped by the nasty face mask I had to wear for a lot of the afternoon. Anyways, it was still really good, I think I'm gunna love it there.

I'm gunna go shower now, because this weather is too hot for sitting around let alone running around a hot A+E department. I smell kinda bad.

this_quest @ 2009-06-18T18:04:00

2009-06-18T17:10:02Z

Haven't posted in a while. Ticking along as usual. Went to see Jen in Canterbury which was awesome, and met Russell Howard which was also awesome. Would post some more and some pics but I can't be bothered. Can't really be bothered to do anything at the moment, everything feels like a massive effort and I feel exhausted all the time. Don't know what the fucks wrong with me but I need to snap out of it before I start A+E placement, or I'll just die. This is definitely the shittist part of the year, when everyone else has finished and just getting out of bed to go to lectures takes far more will power than I have. Have tonnes of work and revision to do, plus extra work as I need to resubmit my last portfolio. I failed because I'm a massive twat who did all the long essays and somehow left out the crappy little appendix bit.

Anyone who is bored of holidays already, feel free to come to Surrey and slap me round the face and tell me to man up. I think I need it.

this_quest @ 2009-03-19T22:50:00

2009-03-19T22:57:08Z

Eurgh I don't know what's wrong with me at the moment but I've felt crap for ages :( I don't know if I've got a bug brewing or I've just made myself ill from stress/lack of sleep. I missed my lectures yesterday and had to cancel my paid shifts today because I felt so shit, which was bad because I really need the money but kinda good because I really hate doing those shifts. Whenever I have to go do one I just hate it, and spend so much time before hand stressing and worrying about it. And I really need to get the hell on with my portfolio work, I'm so behind at the moment but I have zero motivation. I can't even be bothered to go have a shower right now, because standing up for 10 minutes and washing myself seems like a massive effort that I can't cope with. Whoever I come across tomorrow will just have to put up with me smelling grim. I've been nauseous and lethargic and crap for ages and I need it to go away so I can sort myself out and get on with my life.

I can't wait for the holidays :( :(

this_quest @ 2009-03-13T23:56:00

2009-03-14T00:01:32Z

I wish I could watch more Comic relief, but I'm working a long day tomorow and really need to go to bed. Plus the hour and a half I watched made me cry :( To be fair, I didn't finish my shitty shitty HCA shift till 8:45, and as soon as a got home I started drinking Red Nose Wine, so I wasn't exactly at my most emotionally resiliant.

Eurgh, I love placement but I seriously can't wait for the holidays, and I really don't want to do all my extra shifts.

I bought myself an easter egg after my shift today when I was waiting for the bus and it cheered me up. Simple things.

Oh yeah, and I dyed my hair. Well, Hannah did it for me because I'm a bit special and would've cocked it up. It was meant to be for red nose day but I kinda like it so I think I'm gunna keep it like this.

this_quest @ 2009-03-01T08:05:00

2009-03-01T08:09:01Z

I just finished my second night shift in a row and feel really dazed and spaced out, but nights are actually much better than I thought (with the help of a lot of coffee and lucozade).

I haven't posted in a while but I'm just sort of trundling along nicely. Placement is awesome but knackering, can't wait for holidays.

And now I need to sleep.

My brain still isn't quite used to this whole sleeping in the day thing. Having breakfast at 6pm is really weird and confusing.

this_quest @ 2009-02-08T12:59:00

2009-02-08T13:05:33Z

Tiger Woods just spoke to me through my ipod when I was running with my nike+ thing and said "Congratulations, you have just run your fastest mile!", and it made me happy :) Plus, it's nice and sunny and spring like, and all the snow is melting :) Good day.

I start placement again tomorrow, can't wait! Two weeks in paed outpatients, then three weeks on the children's ward (I love it there!) I don't actually know much about what happens in outpatients, but I have a good feeling about it.

And I finally got my uniform to do Care Assistant work, so I can start earning some pennies. It's a bit scary because I've only spent 4 weeks on an adult ward before and I didn't really like it, but it's sort of on an as-and-when basis and there's plenty of wards to choose from, so If I don't like a place I can just not go back there.

I have a Casablanca obsession at the moment, I've watched loads in the past few weeks. I expected it to be really boring and crap, and it's actually really good. If you haven't seen it you should.

this_quest @ 2009-02-02T11:26:00

2009-02-02T11:26:36Z

From the BBC website -

"South-east England has the worst snow it has seen for 18 years, causing all London buses to be pulled from service and the closure of Heathrow's runways.
Road and rail travel was also badly hit by up to 6in (15cm) of snow."

FUCK YEAH SNOW!

I'm glad I don't have to drive anywhere. I hope it's all gone by the weekend when I have to get back to the hospital.

We are building an epic igloo. Apparently the south has made me all soft and grandma-ish because I had to come in for a cup of tea to warm up before carrying on.

this_quest @ 2009-02-01T21:43:00

2009-02-01T21:43:20Z

We have awesome snow, it's really cool! It's only been snowing for an hour or so and it's really deep :) I went out for the snowball fight and to make a snowman, but it was super cold and my fingers and toes hurt, so I came back in for a cup of tea.

I took a couple of crappy pictures with my phone

I put them behind a cut because they turned out maaasssssive and I can't be bothered changing it.

Snow looks pretty in street-lamp light

this_quest @ 2009-01-14T17:26:00

2009-01-14T17:32:33Z

I keep meaning to post all the cute pictures I took at the zoo but it feels like a lot of effort. Maybe tomorrow. Even so it was awesome and a brilliant day overall :) We saw the penguins being fed. I decided otters are my favorite, with sloths being a close second. They climb in a really cool way.

I just finished reading the first dexter book, and I loved it! I don't usually go for that kind of book and I only read it because mum and jen said it was really good, and it was! I've decided I don't want to watch the TV show in case it's not as good, but I can't wait to read the second one!

Mum's coming to visit on Sunday :) I had such a productive cleaning-and-tidying day, my room looks quite nice and impressive.

this_quest @ 2009-01-08T12:24:00

2009-01-08T12:35:55Z

Being home for christmas was nice, but I was ready to come home by the end of two weeks! I like being back in Guildford, it's like I never left. Apart from one pretty stressful all nighter on my first night back, I've had such a nice lazy time just bumming around and not really doing much.

Tomorow is my birthday and I can't wait :) Me and Matt are going to London Zoo, well exciting! Yeah I know I'm a big kid but I've only ever been to one zoo before and it was ages ago. It's gunna be fun! I can't wait for my present from matt, he's been trying to make me open it since I got back so I can tell he's proud of it and it's gunna be good.

We are getting two new housemates soon. I hope they're nice and fun. We need some fun people!

I'm watching 10 years younger. Chemical peels look really gross.

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2008-12-24T14:08:17Z

It's so lovely to be home for christmas :) I've only been home since saturday and I've had a great time so far. I liked meeting up with my friends and having a laugh together again, and I really love being with my family. I'm really glad we still do all the traditional stuff and make a big deal out of christmas - we're all so excited! (Especially me, Beth and Jen, because we are big kids!!) Tonight is going to be great, I love christmas eve! And of course I can't wait for tomorrow!

I hope everyone has a wonderful christmas!

xx

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2008-11-28T22:36:54Z

Bad day :(

One of the babies died today. The parents were called in at 6 AM, and she didn't offically die until noon ish, they had to sit and watch her die all that time.

This morning all I got bollocked loads by one staff nurse who said I was doing everything wrong, even I was doing it how everyone else had shown me to.

This afternoon, she fucked off home and didn't get anyone to replace her, so I spent over 6 hours in a room with 5 sick babies all on my own, even though I'm not meant to do anything unsupervised. One of whom was withdrawing from heroin and screamed and screamed and screamed. I wanted to just leave and take him with me.

Days like this make me dislike placement.

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2008-11-20T10:00:50Z

I am having serious essay fail. Does anyone want to write it for me?! Or even just talk to me and keep me entertained so I don't fall asleep in the library?

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2008-11-19T20:22:40Z

I rode in the back of an ambulance today.

It was fucking awesome.

NEENAWNEENAWNEENAWNEENAWNEENAWNEENAWNEENAW

I like the siren.

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2008-11-18T10:24:00Z

I just looked down my journal and realized all I do here is bitch and moan.

Possible new year's resolution - write about good stuff.

42

2008-11-18T10:21:44Z

So I just rang NHSProfessionals to ask about my job application (which started last january), and to ask for the 5th time now why I haven't heard anything since I did my mandatory training in August. The past 4 times I've rang they said they were just waiting for my CRB or something, but didn't really seem to know or care. This time I gave them my details and they checked on the system.........and I wasn't there. Some bitch on the other end was like "oh we got a new system so your application might be lost". Are you fucking kidding me?! If they tell me I have to reapply I will actually go over to their offices and shoot everyone. I cannot wait another fucking year to start working, I need money. The whole application - working process is so fucking long anyway, I'm not doing it twice. I can't apply for another job because this is the only one flexible enough to fit in with my placement, no normal job will hire me.

I am going to fucking stab someone.

On the plus side, I'm going christmas shopping with Jen and Beth this weekend. I'm trying really hard to think about that and not my urge to slam my face against my desk.

Christmas shopping would be easier if I actually had some fucking money though.

I am not a happy bunny.

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2008-10-24T21:25:13Z

Lots of good stuff has been happening. I've been having a really good time since we started lectures back at uni again. I love living with Matt, I get on really well with his housemates and it's really nice to have people to hang out with. I'm getting on better with the girls in my class now as well, we have a laugh together.

I got a new iPod the other day :D It's a brand new pink nano, and it's beautiful and I love it. Me and Matt decided not to do anniversary presents but I came home the other day and it was sat on my pillow waiting for me :) It's an early anniversary / christmas present and every time I use it it makes me happy!

Me and Jen and Beth are planning a super awesome christmas shopping day, and I'm so excited!! We're all meeting at Bluewater (massive huge shopping centre near Kent), and Jen says that depending when we go we could also go to an open air ice rink, fun fair, christmas market and christmas grotto. I'm so excited, it's gunna be awesome! I can't wait to see beth and jen.

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2008-10-10T15:38:36Z

Good Lord. I have just waited 3 hours to NOT give blood. I am not impressed.

I finished work early today so I went to the mobile donation van at the hospital and asked to donate. They didn't have an appointment for 3 hours so instead of going straight to Guildford like I planned, I waited around because I was in a good mood and so felt like being a good person. I asked at the time if it was ok for me to give blood, as I had a vaccination a few weeks ago, and they said yes it was fine. At what point did they decide it was not fine? Yep, about 5 minutes ago, after I had hung around here for fricking ages. I had even already decided which biscuit to have when I was done. I was not a happy bunny.

Luckily it's nice and sunny and autumnal here and the leaves are pretty, which puts me in a good mood. And I finished my placement today and now I get to go bum around in guildford for a month. So I'm still quite cheery, despite still having all my blood and no custard cream or hobnobs. By far the best biscuits.

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2008-09-24T07:06:35Z

So my phone randomly fixed itself. Decided at about 11 last night that I wasn't so bad after all, and switched itself back on. So now I feel like a bit of a dick, but it really was broken, I wasn't just being super dumb!

Many thanks for all wall and pigeon suggestions. I tried the wall one, but unfortunately couldn't find any pigeons. Plus they smell and kind of scare me a bit.

I really can't be arsed with work today. I like going and I always have a good day, but I'm soo tired and I don't know why. I was fine last week and this week I feel like the walking dead. I woke up like 5 times last night after having nightmares, including one where my aunty and uncle were holding me and matt hostage and wanted to kill us and just before I woke up I had to stab my aunty with a knife attached to a spanner. I seriously have no idea where this shit comes from.