wants to cry and vomit, and really wishes she didn't care this much.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
So last wednesday night when I had a long day shift the next day I couldn't get to sleep because new house boy invited his friends round to be really loud and drunk all night. Last night I got woken up at 3 am because new house boy stumbled into the house loudly and wandered round ricocheting off the walls for at least an hour. I did a long day today and have two more to do in a row, and so people who I don't even know except for a couple of them (probably first years, assholes) and new house boy are having a fucking rave right outside my bedroom window.
I swear if I owned a gun I'd have killed everyone in this shithole by now out of pure unadulterated rage and disdain. These situations are how bullshit like the virginia tech massacre occur.
I am clearly getting no sleep tonight, AGAIN. I swear if I accidentally kill a baby tomorrow I cannot be held accountable.
In other news, I had a driving lesson yesterday. We did meeting other cars, roundabouts and crossroads. I managed not to crash or cry, and only stalled once. I'm counting that as a win.
I have so much work/theory/job stuff to do it's making me want to light myself on fire. I cried at my supervisor the other day, so at least if I fail entirely at life I might get some sort of sympathy vote.
Horribly sad grandparent related news that is horrible and sad that I don't want to go into. I'm trying not to think about it and pretend it won't happen, but I don't think it's gunna work for very long.
On the male front, I have become so ridiculous I can't even tell when I'm being ridiculous anymore. I genuinely cannot tell if someone is a nice normal lovely person or secretly a two faced asshole. I am either stupidly cynical or very naive and I can't tell which. Romcoms and Sex in the City - this is what you have done to me. I need to stay away from anything involving Hugh Grant/Sandra Bullock/Renee Zelweger and anything with the title "He's just not that into you".
yet another "oops, I never update" post.
I got firsts in both pieces of work I've done so far this year :D so big hurrah's all round. Plus I had a meeting with my project supervisor today and she said I was getting on well. So on the academic front, it's actually currently going better than I ever expected.
I'm on placement with the community children's nurses at the moment, which is ok but not really my cup of tea. I'm learning lots, but it's lots of oncology and life limiting illness type stuff which gets a bit much all day every day. The staff are quite nice though, when they're not bitching about each other and generally making the office uncomfortable (there's a lot of office politics going on that I'm trying really hard to just stay out of.)
In other news, I've decided I would quite like to have a man brain, just for a day. Just to try and figure out how they work and stuff. Any blokes wanna swap with me? All in the name of science, of course.
I just watched The Princess Diaries for the first time in years. I had forgotten how fantabulous that film is.
good loooooord i really don't ever learn my lesson, do i?
that is all. can't be bothered to explain my ridiculousness.
17 weeks since I last updated, apparently.
Lots has happened since I last updated, I won't go into all of it. I think the main thing right now is the SNOW which is lovely and pretty and nice to walk in and has got me out of 2 days of lectures. However, it's my birthday on saturday and if I can't get over to Guildford or to the pub because of the snow, I will not be pleased.
Other than that, ticking along as usual really. Apparently I've got really bad at this whole writing about myself thing, because I can't really think of anything very exciting to tell you. This term and the next are gunna be stressful and crap, but I can't wait to graduate and I'm already looking forward to going on holiday when it's all over.
I have an essay I'm meant to be writing. It's not going well. My current form of procrastination is in the form of watching Casanova and Blackpool obsessively because the christmas/new years day Doctor Who made me realize how much I love David Tennant, and am very sad that he is gone :( If there are any Tennant fans who haven't seen either of those programs go and download them, now.
Hope y'all are well.
I have not had internet in a long time
since hannah moved out in fact
jen has leant me hers tonight :)
apparently, I have been kicked out of ADIML_4_ADULTS, one of the very few communities I followed and enjoyed around her
that has not helped the shit mood I am in
and I am pissed off
I haven't been very active recently what with the whole internet problem but I posted in quite a few challenges.
didn't even get an explanation or a fucking goodbye
as you may be able to tell, I am being a miserable drunk.
Well that was an adventure
Earlier today we had a power cut. It only lasted about an hour and really wasn't very dramatic, just a little boring.
This evening, as we were just starting the half hour walk home from the pub in the dark through the scary dark paths, we had another power cut and all the street lights went out. Gotta be honest, I was shit scared :( I know it's pathetic but I don't like the dark. Luckily the chertsey amubulance station is on our way home and the nice paramedics let us wait in the station with them till our taxi arrived.
Small bit of back-story. A few weeks ago a mental health patient escaped from the mental health ward on site. Today, there was an article in the surrey herald about another patient who has escaped from what is meant to be the most secure ward, warning people that he is dangerous and not to be approached.
This made the scary walk in the dark all the more fun.
Considering we are a house of 4 (fairly pathetic) girls we did a good job of being brave enough to find all our torches and candles and sitting together in the lounge. Luckily just before it was time to go to bed the power came back on.
From now on, power cuts are only allowed in day time.
I'm in the computer lab and someone in front of me is fixing her flip flop by pushing drawing pins up through the sole. I am waiting for her to try and walk and hilarity to ensue.
In other news, I have a pharmacology exam tomorow. It is 45 minutes long and has 30 questions. Here is what I have learnt:
We take drugs. They do stuff to us. If we take the right amount of good drugs, they do good stuff. If we take the wrong amount, or take bad drugs, they do bad stuff to us. Some drugs make other drugs not work. If you take MAOI's, you can't eat dairy. I'm not convinced it would be worth it. Grapefuit juice is also a general no-no for some drugs.
I can have marks, yes??
Whenever I try and revise I just sit and sing songs in my head, so I might as well save myself the effort and just listen to my iPod.
No.1 bad thing about living at a hospital - when people escape from the 'secure' mental health ward and come knocking on your door.
Not even kidding :(
It was really sad. We think maybe he was from the dementia ward, but he was carrying a knife and looked a bit scary. He said he was trying to escape, and when we said we'd ring security he said that's who he was escaping from and looked really scared. He wandered on after we closed the door and we rang the mental health unit and eventually got hold of the ward he should have been on, who came and got him.
Security were fucking useless. We tried ringing them twice and they said they would ring back, but never did. When my housemates went out to find out where the man was and make sure he was ok, they ran into security who basically told them they were on their own, and to ring the police next time.
Security my ass.
Door is locked and this was a weird night.