I have not had internet in a long time

since hannah moved out in fact

jen has leant me hers tonight :)

apparently, I have been kicked out of ADIML_4_ADULTS, one of the very few communities I followed and enjoyed around her

that has not helped the shit mood I am in

and I am pissed off

I haven't been very active recently what with the whole internet problem but I posted in quite a few challenges.

didn't even get an explanation or a fucking goodbye

as you may be able to tell, I am being a miserable drunk.

Well that was an adventure

Earlier today we had a power cut. It only lasted about an hour and really wasn't very dramatic, just a little boring.

This evening, as we were just starting the half hour walk home from the pub in the dark through the scary dark paths, we had another power cut and all the street lights went out. Gotta be honest, I was shit scared :( I know it's pathetic but I don't like the dark. Luckily the chertsey amubulance station is on our way home and the nice paramedics let us wait in the station with them till our taxi arrived.

Small bit of back-story. A few weeks ago a mental health patient escaped from the mental health ward on site. Today, there was an article in the surrey herald about another patient who has escaped from what is meant to be the most secure ward, warning people that he is dangerous and not to be approached.

This made the scary walk in the dark all the more fun.

Considering we are a house of 4 (fairly pathetic) girls we did a good job of being brave enough to find all our torches and candles and sitting together in the lounge. Luckily just before it was time to go to bed the power came back on.

From now on, power cuts are only allowed in day time.

tonight fun cant fel feet not leepy yet

I'm in the computer lab and someone in front of me is fixing her flip flop by pushing drawing pins up through the sole. I am waiting for her to try and walk and hilarity to ensue.

In other news, I have a pharmacology exam tomorow. It is 45 minutes long and has 30 questions. Here is what I have learnt:

We take drugs. They do stuff to us. If we take the right amount of good drugs, they do good stuff. If we take the wrong amount, or take bad drugs, they do bad stuff to us. Some drugs make other drugs not work. If you take MAOI's, you can't eat dairy. I'm not convinced it would be worth it. Grapefuit juice is also a general no-no for some drugs.

I can have marks, yes??

Whenever I try and revise I just sit and sing songs in my head, so I might as well save myself the effort and just listen to my iPod.

No.1 bad thing about living at a hospital - when people escape from the 'secure' mental health ward and come knocking on your door.

Not even kidding :(

It was really sad. We think maybe he was from the dementia ward, but he was carrying a knife and looked a bit scary. He said he was trying to escape, and when we said we'd ring security he said that's who he was escaping from and looked really scared. He wandered on after we closed the door and we rang the mental health unit and eventually got hold of the ward he should have been on, who came and got him.

Security were fucking useless. We tried ringing them twice and they said they would ring back, but never did. When my housemates went out to find out where the man was and make sure he was ok, they ran into security who basically told them they were on their own, and to ring the police next time.

Security my ass.

Door is locked and this was a weird night.

I just got in a from a night shift, going to sleep soon however I'm in one of those moods where I just need an excuse to say...

I am fupping fed up with all this swine flu nonsense.

Good Lord.

Maybe if we renamed it to "really not that scary at all" flu, then the world and it's wife would stop cacking it's pants. And coming into hospital to do so.

Also, I am not impressed at the people who came in at 3 in the morning (just when I thought we would have a nice quiet spell) because their kid had pain in their hand. And they had not given any pain relief.

They drove to A+E at 3 in the morning because they couldn't be arsed to go to 24hr tescos (just down the road) and get some Calpol.

Really? REALLY?


Sorry. A+E has turned me into a cynical, judgemental, horrible person. I still like it though.

Next week is my last week :( I've liked it here.

Night night.

I just finished my first long day in paeds A+E and it was effing awesome. I've been triaging and looking after a girl with suspected swine flu and the ward sister said she was really impressed how fast I'm learning, especially in terms of doing triage already :) It was wicked but so ridonkulously hot, I'm sure no one wants to know this but I'm really hot and sweaty and disgusting at the moment. Not helped by the nasty face mask I had to wear for a lot of the afternoon. Anyways, it was still really good, I think I'm gunna love it there.

I'm gunna go shower now, because this weather is too hot for sitting around let alone running around a hot A+E department. I smell kinda bad.

Haven't posted in a while. Ticking along as usual. Went to see Jen in Canterbury which was awesome, and met Russell Howard which was also awesome. Would post some more and some pics but I can't be bothered. Can't really be bothered to do anything at the moment, everything feels like a massive effort and I feel exhausted all the time. Don't know what the fucks wrong with me but I need to snap out of it before I start A+E placement, or I'll just die. This is definitely the shittist part of the year, when everyone else has finished and just getting out of bed to go to lectures takes far more will power than I have. Have tonnes of work and revision to do, plus extra work as I need to resubmit my last portfolio. I failed because I'm a massive twat who did all the long essays and somehow left out the crappy little appendix bit.

Anyone who is bored of holidays already, feel free to come to Surrey and slap me round the face and tell me to man up. I think I need it.

Eurgh I don't know what's wrong with me at the moment but I've felt crap for ages :( I don't know if I've got a bug brewing or I've just made myself ill from stress/lack of sleep. I missed my lectures yesterday and had to cancel my paid shifts today because I felt so shit, which was bad because I really need the money but kinda good because I really hate doing those shifts. Whenever I have to go do one I just hate it, and spend so much time before hand stressing and worrying about it. And I really need to get the hell on with my portfolio work, I'm so behind at the moment but I have zero motivation. I can't even be bothered to go have a shower right now, because standing up for 10 minutes and washing myself seems like a massive effort that I can't cope with. Whoever I come across tomorrow will just have to put up with me smelling grim. I've been nauseous and lethargic and crap for ages and I need it to go away so I can sort myself out and get on with my life.

I can't wait for the holidays :( :(

I wish I could watch more Comic relief, but I'm working a long day tomorow and really need to go to bed. Plus the hour and a half I watched made me cry :( To be fair, I didn't finish my shitty shitty HCA shift till 8:45, and as soon as a got home I started drinking Red Nose Wine, so I wasn't exactly at my most emotionally resiliant.


Eurgh, I love placement but I seriously can't wait for the holidays, and I really don't want to do all my extra shifts.

I bought myself an easter egg after my shift today when I was waiting for the bus and it cheered me up. Simple things.

Oh yeah, and I dyed my hair. Well, Hannah did it for me because I'm a bit special and would've cocked it up. It was meant to be for red nose day but I kinda like it so I think I'm gunna keep it like this.